Journal Entry#1

Well this is definitely my first blog and I'm a little late doing it. It has been a rough few weeks for me starting school and all. I feel a bit overwhelmed  but I am not one to give up when things get rough but I do get distracted a lot. I have been trying to provide a good life for my family since we became a family and lately it has been hard. I have been trying to get into corrections for the past month and a half that way I could make more money while I go to school to become a Firefighter/Paramedic and save up to buy a house in the next two years. It's always something with me and my dreams are always put to the side. Not this time I thought I am Unstoppable nothing is going to get in my way. I just found out yesterday afternoon while getting my physical to go to corrections academy that I have bradycardia. I basically means I have an extremely slow heart rate and I may need to get a pace maker but until i see a cardiologist they are going to put my medical records on hold. But wait there is more!! I don't have health insurance because I just got out of the Marine Corps and I was trying to get this job so I could afford health insurance for my family and myself. So with that said it is going to cost me hundreds of dollars I don't have to maybe find out if they can continue my application process. But that is not all as if my dreams haven't been folding over and crashing down on themselves I just realized that if I don't get the clearance I need from the cardiologist then I can't become a Firefighter/Paramedic like I have dreamed of becoming since I was a kid. I had it all planned out when I graduated high school. Live on my own and get a few jobs for work experience, join the military to serve my country and show my dedication to service. Finally I get out of the Marine Corps and try to apply to become a Firefighter I don't even get to see an application because now they want 2 years college experience. So I go to school now no big deal and then I find this out and I feel like the past ten years of my life has been a big waste of time and I don't know what to do. My Definition of the Unknown was Anxious because there is so much I am worried about and so many questions I need answered I hope it gets better. Sorry if my first blog is a little drama filled but it felt good to get it off my chest. Journal Entry1